“Hello, Did you wake up today?”
When your mother asks you that you have one kind of answer, likely involving rolling of the eyes, I don’t care how old you are (neither does she, she’ll always want to know). But when the Universe asks you that, what do you say? Seemed like a good thing to have an answer for.
This idea came about because it seems like lately my husband, Quai Franklin, and I have been talking about how to live our perfect lives, live as our most authentic selves and what seems like a lot of messages coming from us from all sides that that’s exactly what we need to do, now more than ever; that things always work out better when we are just truly ourselves. We’ve both been on this quest individually for years, no doubt. Our good friend Zeke is really just beginning this quest, whereas we are finally finding our way back to the path after many life detours. We all bring invaluable perspectives to the table in our little “personal growth tank” as I have come to appreciate this trio of characters that we are. I think we all kind of have a secret hope, maybe not so secret, that we can grow to include others somehow. That’s a very potentially broad and idealistic and possibly esoteric concept maybe but a lot of amazing things can grow from something small and honest.
At one point,while Qwai and I were talking about our ideal lives, we both got kinda emotional conceptualizing it…you know, shimmering with it…and I asked him, “Can we really live like that?” And he responded, laughing, “I don’t think we get to ask that question at this point, the Universe has revoked our privileges to ask it.” Many things we thought were impossible visions have happened for us in the nearly 12 years we’ve known each other (including meeting each other to start with!), or we have somehow managed to make happen. And my thought is, on my end, the only thing really stopping me from living it right now is my body’s limitations (current and future best–which I fear facing as limited). The more I reduce those limitations the more I get to live as I dream. Currently the biggest limitation is low energy and weakness. This means doing all I can not to waste or deplete energy in ways that don’t also benefit and support long term sustainability. Wow that “S” word comes up a lot in many areas of my life these days.
My response to Quai’s claim the Universe is pretty supportive of us continuing on the path of being us was that the Universe might put it more succinctly like “Duh. Did you wake up today?” which can be understood in a myriad of ways from that jumping point, although what I meant first was, ” you are already living it,’ followed by other interpretations like thinking of it as a meditation: “Are you mindful of your life today? Are you awake to the big picture? Are you aware of the currents around you? Are you awake on more levels than just physically?” You know…the stuff that the Universe might care about if it cared..haha. 🙂
I want pause here to recognize for myself that I think it’s great that even despite the fair amount of “damage” I’ve accumulated over the years I’ve climbed, slid down, rolled across, hardly noticed, and crawled through this blessed life, I still have enough optimism to say what I did above about living authentically and the changes required and mean it. Zeke today commented on something that my amazing step-daughter said in her FB, part of a debate she was having with her grandmother…(oh wondrous and scary, these modern times where family debates can be views by thousands–internet reality shows)…where she said that part of being 20 is being more open to change, in this case she was referring to the radical change of a “world without money.” Zeke commented that she was “from the same planet” as he is also in his 20s and very very open to change and believes a world without money is possible. And I just realized that despite all of the above I’m from that same planet, in terms of still believing that revolutionary change and broad evolution on a consciousness level is possible, that it’s STILL possible to make peace with each other and heal this planet and it’s people, even if I can only make that happen one relationship at a time, one moment at a time.
Speaking of damage, is our damage what makes us wonderful? More on this topic on my next post…
As to whether I woke up today, I think I did. By writing this post, and I have been long overdue and refuse to look at actual numbers…I am saying I’m awake today, Universe. Bring it on!
Respect,
Ren
PS. the reason I keep capitalizing the word “universe” is because I’m thinking of it as the essense and source and end of life that we are all part of and from and regardless of whether being human means we are merely matter or transform from matter to energy and back again in a “spiritual” sense or not, I still feel like I want to give it proper respect with a capital U in reverence to it’s cosmic vastness and the Source that I’m part of. 😀 Source and Universe being interchangeable in my mind. I mean seriously…the Universe is AWESOME! Gosh…how many are there? What’s bigger than a collection of Universes? Somebody …please stop me….